Just feel useless. Like pounding my head into a wall. Scared of everything. I don't know how to be myself anymore. Faking a stupid smile every day, faking happy, faking okay. I just want to get up and scream in everyone's face that of course I'm not okay. I'm never okay. I'm tired of faking. I want to yell and scream and RANT but I can't because I'm so stupid. Stupid and I don't deserve anything good. I can't even be ME anymore because I don't know who I am. I pretend to be okay and listen to everyone and be happy but I'm not. I'm weak I'm stupid and I hate myself.