I’m sorry things ended unexpectedly for you DP. I know I would be a mess if something happened to T. If something happened to T I would probably have to go to NY and visit Fr to get past it. Seeing as T gets a LOT of Fr transference (which actually works in both of our favors) I don’t know how else I would cope. Fr. Would just hold me... once he made sure I was OK with that. We haven’t done much more than hugs and it has been over 5 years.