(((((((((((((((((((Ledgewood))))))))))))))))))))))) I don't find you useless, stupid, weak or any of the other deragatory descriptions in your post. I do see that you are in great pain and it seems that you are struggling to find your way. Sometimes it is hard to untangle who we are from what we think others want us to be. Please be kind to yourself and give yourself time to find out who you are.

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