It's been a long and rough week for me already. I don't deal well with being alone. The past two days, I have been alone in my office and then alone when I go home.

Last week, I ended a friendship with someone that I was very close to and had developed romantic/love feelings for. That resulted in my constantly feeling rejected, disrespected, unloved, and unworthy. I told her how I felt a few months ago and she couldn't reciprocate the feelings. I didn't actually hold it against her because I know her story, but when I tried to pull away and pulled me back toward her, I started to resent her. She knew that she was hurting me, and she didn't care. She wanted me as her friend and my feelings were unimportant. So, I ended the friendship.

I haven't seen or spoken to her since Thursday. She avoided me on Friday, and has not been to work today or yesterday. I am finding myself missing her a lot.

I find my mind trying to convince me that I was wrong for walking out of her life. It has been a struggle to maintain no contact. I try to remind myself that the relationship had become toxic for me and that I'm just going through the grieving process. It doesn't make the pain any less even knowing that I just have to experience the pain to get through it.

Sitting in silence, alone, for hours is not helping either. My mind runs through all of those horrible scripts that people ask themselves at the end of a relationship. "Should I have done something differently?" "Could I have tried harder?" "Am I wrong for making the decision?" etc. etc. etc.

The feelings probably wouldn't feel so intense if I had people to interact with and talk to. But, I don't.

Any suggestions on how to deal with the loneliness?