Dear T:

I am working on seeing alternatives in the place where I feel stuck. Theoretically there are always different ways to see things and different ways to do things, but the difficult part comes in giving up the benefits of the alternatives, or the privileges of staying stuck. Fixed, specific ideas are difficult to give up, like a favorite blanket or a home that doesn't really work for my needs right now. Sometimes it's just a lot easier to engage in the status quo, as there is too much planning and logistics needed to make big physical changes. I am a fortunate and lucky person to even be able to contemplate these changes, and not being tied down to place or person feels exciting. What to do with the want but the not quite able to? Especially when the change is not driven by hurt or issues, but just a desire for *more.* I want it, but I'd prefer it just be handed to me. Haha.