Thank you Violon95. I know others are going through similar, and much worse, situations than I am. It helps to be able to talk about things and know that others are there to listen. I really appreciate you reach out.

Thank you for the links Skeezyks. I will check them out.

Yeah, Sisabel, the distance from her will help me deal with things and heal my own issues. During a long talk with my therapist on Monday, we discovered that my attraction to this woman, and the many women like her in my past, is really my trying to get a woman who does not love me to love me. They are surrogates for my mother and my feeling abandoned and neglected by her. It's like my subconscious mind is telling me that if I can just make these women love me that I can prove to myself that I am lovable and worthy. We also discovered that I automatically reject any woman who genuinely cares for and about me in any sort of loving way.

Day three of the friend not being in her office. She was already depressed, I hope that my choice didn't push her someplace bad. Am I over-reacting? Is this another game of hers to manipulate me into giving her attention and trying to rescue her? I guess that I'll never know the true answers. I am concerned though.