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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
She almost immediately asked what was next? Could I commit to more time without SH? I was taken aback by this. I expected her to be supportive. She said it sounded like I was just going to SH on Easter Day. I said I wouldn't do it on Easter Day (however, I said nothing about the Monday afterward).
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She said I needed to think about committing to a week at a time after Easter came. She said I needed to replace SH with something (but what can that something be?). Again we talked about the innate feelings of bad. She said if I want to believe a lie then that is up to me. She seemed more confrontational that usual. I didn't like it. I don't mind being gently prodded but I don't like being pushed. She said that if I wanted to go on not forgiving myself for everyday ordinary transgressions than that was up to me.
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I understand that it can be painful to have an off session and that dissociating is never fun. I can also see how what your T said could feel like pressure or pushing.
At a basic level, the way I hear it, she seems to be just telling it to your straight, saying what she thinks. I don't hear manipulation or coercion, just someone saying something to someone who sees it differently. Her words offer a contrast to how you see it, and you don't have to change your mind, but I have welcomed being able to consider something in a different light, even when I ultimately reject it.
I hope it gets easier for you.