I get you. I haven't been with anyone in years, as well; and AI also watch a lot of porn. For a while I feared that I had an addiction, but then I determined that I don't feel a need to watch it. I just like it a lot, and it is so much easier to just get off without all the prep work and logistics of actually hooking up. (Though I have no issue with that either . . . just haven't in a long time.)
(And I love your username, by the way. We can always use some ace rimmers!)