I am remembering things from my childhood and teen years in things and clarity I do NOT want to remember. Today has been quite literally terrifying for my psyche. I fear the worst is yet to come. The talk of trauma background with my therapist on Monday opened Pandora’a Box. Flashbacks, fear, severe panic and anxiety, periodic crying, unease and fixating on things. Maybe this is why I didn’t think of the past for the longest time. It was too difficult and painful. I feel no one will believe me. I fear I am making up things, that they never happened to me.