I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Aviza I understand it's a tough decision to make. Like you've said, though, you need to think about your future as well. Your life may not be so bad right now, but you have to ask yourself where would you like to be in five or ten years from you. Do you still want to live with your mom? Is that what you want? You've been putting a lot of effort into this apartment you want to move into. It seems like you do want to move after all. Just try to thhink about what you truly want to do with yourself and you your life. What do you want to do? What do you wish to do? Please try to think about that. Moving out is not easy, but it can be worth it. It's your indipendence and your freedom we're talking about after all. I'm sure you'll be able to handle all of this. You just need to believe in yourself a little bit more. Please don't give up. You can do this, Aviza! I believe in you, Aviza. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you, Aviza. Please keep us updated. You're a strong, wonderful person, Aviza. Please remember that. I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this, Aviza!