T0 yeh, you get a 0 cuz you stink. You really screwed up with a kid that really needed help. As far as I can tell you started the “too much” perception. She is too damaged to heal, she is too scared to heal... no, you just weren’t good enough for her. Now, will you kindly stop haunting me and T R.

T1 I know you care(d) but you let the scared stay, you didn’t know how to make it stop. In the end you were more good than bad. You let me see the other side, that T’s are just people too. T R doesn’t like you having me read books about other people worse off than me to put things in perspective. He says it is numbing and minimizes my experience... I have to agree.

T3 you taught me T’s have limits and that’s OK. I wish you could have told me about it instead of dumping me and running but you taught me I could confront you and still be kind.

J T... you never took me on as a client and I wish you had. I know you said you were intimidated by me... OK, given our early history, I can see that. Thanks for the hug when I triggered I see that as a big piece of being able to work with T R now. I miss the you I knew even though I know you are no longer that person.

T P.. hey! That’s fitting! TP! Yeh, I can’t believe you still have your license. That is all.

T S. Eh, funny but not as fitting as TP... you were very helpful for where I was when I first started with you. You taught me to (try and) be courageous in therapy. I would like to run into you again, not that you would remember me. I am sorry you thought I could not heal, that all that could be done was damage control. I’m glad I don’t believe you.

Fr, oh how I miss you. Thank you for laying the foundation so that I could reach out to T R and trust him. I hope you will let me come home and take you out to dinner when T R and I make this happen. Thank you for posting on your web page so that I can keep you close without being a pest... now, if you would televise your Mass I would break down and get a TV! Yeh, I haven’t changed, I am still up front, hanging on your every word... sometimes laughing, sometimes crying, always loving you.

T D. Ugh, man you screwed this one up six ways to Sunday! I know you cared but what a waste and SO much damage. I was sad to see that you have decided to be a therapist again. I know you took a few years off and did other things. Do not show your face with T R! If you haunt me I will haunt you back and I’m not afraid of you or your judgements any more.

T L. I am not sure why you left teaching. I think you would make a far better teacher than T. I can’t believe you fired me while I was Sui. I’m not your dad and you really need to work on that!

T N... I miss you as a person not a T. I wonder how you are. I’m sorry I disappeared when you got sick. We were already in trouble as T/client anyway though. I hope you are OK now. I wonder how much of our not being able to work together was Pdoc 1 and your being sick. I know you were always worried about me trashing you outside your office. No worries I haven’t said anything bad about you to T R. I know he knows you... part of me hopes I come up in conversation... a brief hey, you’ll never guess who showed up at my office door... nothing major though. I wish you weren’t haunting me with T R though. I don’t feel like I can talk about it with T R though without hurting you. It sucks. I don’t want to think I am doing something wrong in therapy and that he is going to give up on me.

T R, you are awesome but we need to talk about all these trips and missing sessions. Needy Omers is needy! Fr retires soon and I have work to do first! I miss you. Thanks for holding my hand, for the hugs, for seeing me.