I feel abandoned. I am majorly OCDing as of late. Big time. I don't remember the last time I was so obsessive. I always end up pushing people away. Or being stupid. I need new meds. I might call my Dr. and ask about it, like maybe I need Paxil or something. I did have a lot of energy now, I feel dead like. I wish I could get myself together somehow. I need to find something to do. And then do it.