I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Silk Chaos It seems like you've been through a lot. I'm so sorry. I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given some great advice on this thread. I'd suggest to follow it if you can. Yes, it will take some time to heal. Try not to think about it too much if you can. Although I know it's not easy. Try to find as many distractions as you can, although I'm sure you're doing it already. Take all this time for yourself. Take all the time you need. Just take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. No need to hurry. You will get over this, I'm sure of that. You're a strong, wonderful person, Silk Chaos. You can do everything you want! But first, you need to be kind to yourself. I understand that you're feeling hurt right now, Silk Chaos. Please don't give up. Try to hang on. Things can and will get better. I promise you that. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Silk Chaos. You're a strong, wonderful person. You don't deserve to suffer at all. I hope things will get better soon for you, and for her as well. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this! Keep fighting! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! You can do this! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! Please don't give up! Try to hang on. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Silk Chaos