Saw my doctor. I was honest. Told him about my obsessive thoughts I was having. Was honest. I told him I was embarrassed but glad I didn’t do anything crazy. He says it sounds like I was kind of delusional with it.

I also opened up more. I admitted I’ve been giving into eating disorder thoughts. I’m trying to get better.

Most of all I opened up about my OCD patterns. Intrusive thoughts, rituals. He says that it does sound like I have OCD. But there’s not much by way of treatment options with being psychotic and bipolar. He was going to mention it to the psychiatrist though see what she says. Might mix up my meds. Don’t know yet we’ll see. It doesn’t hugely impede my life. It’s not too out of control.

But for now he was worried about my obsessive thinking. Delusional and tied into OCD as well probably.

He upped my seroquel to 150mg. Said if I get too sleepy on it to lower it back to 100mg. If I get obsessive and that again to come back sooner than a month.

So hopefully I don’t have to cave and come back sooner than a month. I need a ride there so it’s embarrassing to have to explain why I would need an extra appointment. I’m not 100% honest with everyone.