I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fc1998 I understand how you feel. It's hard when we're struggling with self-doubts and self-guilt. You're definitely not alone in this. I have your same struggles. I know how you feel. I hope knowing that you're not alone in this maesk you feel a little bit better. Please remember that you're a strong, wonderful person. You are valuable and you matter just as much as everyone else. Please don't be so hard on yourself. There's nothing wrong with you. You just need to gain some self-confidence and self-love. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. He/she's there to help you, after all. I completely agree with what sarahsweets har already wisely said better than I ever could! I'd suggest to try to listen to her if you can. She always has some great advice! I'm sure your friends love you and accept you for who you truly are. We do as well! We all care about you here. We all love you here. We're all here to support each other. Please don't give up. Remember that we won't judge you, no matter what you say. You can just be yourself. I promise you that. Please keep writing here if it helps. You're not a bother to anyone IRL or here on PC. Please remember that. If someone does think that, it's their problem, not yours! Please don't give up. I'm sure many people can relate to what you wrote, especially here on PC. We'll always be here for you if you need it. I promise you that. Please don't give up. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Fc1998. You're a strong, wonderful person. Please remember that. Please don't give up! Try to hang on!