Thanks y'all. It is a struggle. I've more or less just...given in and accepted he's going to do what he wants. I'm not going to let his addictions impact me. I won't spend any more of my money to support this habit, directly or indirectly. If he runs out of $ because he's spending it on these things...then he's out of luck. I used to feel....jealous? Because the addiction was more important than me. I felt hurt. But he isn't doing it for that. He isn't even thinking about me. This has nothing to do with me. So I shouldn't let my own personal emotions come in to play. I am going to do what is best for me-- and that's not just accept he's an adult and making his own decisions and if he does anything to jeopardize my safety, I won't tolerate it.