It is a beautiful day today. Spent the morning grocery shopping and cleaning. So, my boyfriend and I have a number of tasty meals to make, and I feel much better now that the apartment is clean. We will be going on a picnic later today.

Do not remember if I already posted about this, but I am trying to decide it I should apply for a position at work. It is a long process and I would not start until next year, but I need to decide soon if I should apply. My supervisor is quite encouraging, but she does not know about my mental health and I am finding myself uncertain I can handle it. Not just that my mood will become unstable, but my cognitive functioning seems to not be a guarantee from day to day so it is difficult to feel I can commit myself to something very challenging. There is such a huge disparity in my functioning depending on how I am doing. Sometimes I can do so well and be such a quick learner, other times basic tasks like writing a sentence are hard. When I am having a rough time I find myself masking it a lot, trying not to let coworkers realize it is hard for me to speak, remember anything, or get form point A to point B, etc. I find it embarrassing honestly. :/