(((((((((SweetCrusader))))))))))
hugs not cuts!! support not slicing!!
I have to get to bed but I'm thinking of you and hoping that you make it through tonight. Read up on those lists of things to do instead of SI.........I know those lists can be a pain but when in crisis in depression or SI having a list spelled out to turn to can be a read goddess send. I have them all over in journals, on the computer, on the bedstand, etc. Accessible when most needed.

Sorry if lame suggestions but when this tired I don't have much left in me.