I guess it's because I was in a relationship with someone who usually felt like they had no choice in things...so I guess I feel like I'm forcing myself on someone unless they make all the moves/decisions.

I guess for his sake, I can't do anything. I'll just continue how I was by being interested and complementary. It might be for the best if I don't end up with a guy anyway.

And age-wise, he's probably 22/23 and I'm 30 which would be creepy if I pursue him at all. If he pursues me, then that saves me. It makes me at least less of a monster.