when im alone and all the friends are gone, i feel unwanted. i feel like they went home cause of me. cause im not funny, cause i dont want them to leave, cause im boring, all these things though my head at the end of the day. but its just my feeling, i dont express them in anyway. latly ive been relying on my friends to have any fun in life. if im not around them, im depressed and bored. its like there a high and im addicted to it. i just want to be able to relax and still be happy, even when everyone is gone. ive also notice that me and my girlfriend havnt been getting along very well, and i think its because i value my friends more than her. and im starting to get a little short fused on her, for stupid reasons. is this normal?