Well my t is sort of taking MD's place (pulling out her Nurse pract. skills) and having me do my medical check ins with her while my MD is out. we've even had phone contact both yesterday and today and I've been emailing her as well. she is very determined to have me understand that she is real, and here for me, and that we have this 'relationship' (a foreign substance I am not fully grasping, but trying). She refers to it often and holds us both accountable for it.
I had given up on her yesterday, despite the 3 min phone call and had SIed despite my pact with her that i have to call before acting... so she called me today to check in and i did tell her. So i guess all is good in this 'relationship' and i have permission to call her tomorrow night as well (my usual session time that has been changed) after her group if i need to.
It is still hard for me to hold her as real and as "someone wanting to help". I still feel like i have to do everything with and for my self and not allow her to help me - or even want to.
Kiya