I'm really happy for you,winter4me! You're doing great! I understand why you're struggling with all of this, but I'm glad that you were able to go out and that it was worth it! I can relate to what you wrote here. I'm sure many other people can relate to what you wrote as well, especially here on PC. Still, be proud of yourself for going out! I admire you for that. I have much to learn from you. Sending many hugs to you, winter4me! Keep fighting! You're a strong wonderful person! You can do this! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Keep fighting! You're awesome!