I don't know if I should post or not. Lately I feel this sense of being overwhelmed with my bf, group therapy (PHP), my family, bills, my probation, etc. Last night all I could do was cry and I wanted to cut so badly. It took all I had to not cut. I'm really struggling. I don't think anyone has any idea how overwhelmed I am with all this on my shoulders.

My bf got a new job...I should be happy for him but I'm not. I'll never get to see him! Maybe I'm being selfish but I really don't care. We don't get to see enough of each other to begin with...I haven't seen him since last Friday...which seems like an eternity to me.

I'm also having trouble keeping up with going to work. I'm always worn down...I get up at 3 am to be to work by 4 am. I'm on a cleaning crew. It really sucks.

I don't know what else to say....my meaningless rambles...