I'm feeling really withdrawn. I'm with my family and friends, and work but I'm really withdrawn. I feel like there's a wall between me and everyone else but I don't want it to be there. I want to be more engaged and connected.

I had a conversation with my wife about my depression and the things I'm trying to do to help myself. It's hard to describe to someone what it's like.

She seems to think that I can think my way out of this, not in a bad way but she doesn't understand the depth of despair I feel. Someone without depression can't really understand what it's like.

I'm trying - engaging in a hobby a meeting with friends, working, writing, taking showers. It's a slow process and there are no quick fixes. I guess that's all we can do.