yeah, i think i am figuring out slowly that 2 seperate events of abuse happened that (on the scale of things) were relatively minor - though still wrong. and i could have gotten around those probably if i had had intervention then at 3 yrs old. but when fighting back against the two most important women in my life turned to enduring yet another person, i think i expanded on the dissociation, put the "fight mechanism" away for a while (since it didn't work on the powerful man in my life) and what had been dissociation then became DID with actual parts to take over for me when it all got too much and i couldn't fight.