My ex is a pedophile. I only found this out the hard way. Before he was done he tried to strangle me into keeping it all a secret. Needless to say, I couldn't keep my mouth shut about what he had done. I really don't know where to put this post.

I have a lot of urges to cut and just so much pain inside of me because of what he did. His name was Jim. I hate that name.

My stepfather's name was Jim, too...another pedophile. What is it with guys named Jim? Anyways, I remember Jim (stepfather) used my own past against me. I was raped when I was four and Jim would say "well, you let Rick (rapist) touch you..." I can't stand it! Why is it my fault? I was only four!

Some days I just wish Jim (the ex) would've strangled me and finished the job! Can't he do anything right? Can I? I hate this world! No wonder I don't want any part of the people in it!