you've come to a good place to vent and talk and let go of those thoughts that are robbing you of your peace.

its good you've realized talking to yourself doesn't work very well sometimes. A therapist can be a great sounding board and help you learn coping skills to manage your symptoms.

The time with your friends will likely benefit from the time you give to yourself to being the best you that you can be. Maybe you can make an 'after-therapy-session' coffee date with some of your friends. Make it a reward or bonus to your taking good care of you.

I glad you've gotten some relief from talking about this. You are never alone here. Support is but a click away always.

Take care........