I haven't slept yet. I will blame caffeine on that one, but really it's probably waking up late and taking a long nap during the day. I emailed my therapist with a pretty loaded question at 1am. I'm kind of scared to hear the response, but I'm prepared for whatever it says (its about my diagnosis). We'll see where that goes. I am still feeling just OK. I guess the Lamictal is doing its job, but I'm not really where I want to be, emotionally. I still am on the lower end of the spectrum .

Today I have no real plan, no vision of the future, and nothing prepared to get me through the day. I'm not sure I'll ever feel competent again to work, to be a decent person... to function alone. I'm really gonna struggle fighting those feelings.

Anyway, that's all -- thanks for reading .