Thank you for your in depth response. It's been seven years since this first manifested itself back in 2012. I was in denial and thought I could beat it on willpower alone, and I failed over and over again. This time I realize I need to be on meds, and I will also be going to therapy. I am going to a place that specializes in what I have. I know I need to stay on meds, I just worry about some of the side effects.


If I take anti psychotics long enough will I develop tardive dyskinesia, or is this just an uncommon side effect not all people suffer from? I'm already socially awkward and I'd hate to add facial tics and muscle spasms to the mix. What in your opinion is a good drug, that doesn't have as many scary side effects? I have no choice but to take meds, but on the other hand if I can still get effective treatment, and not put myself in as much risk this would be preferable. Regardless I have to stay on meds, I just want to limit the possible bad side effects as much as possible.