I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Sisabel I completely agree with what Open Eyes has already wisely said better than I ever could! I'd suggest to listen to her if you can and want! She always has some great advice! I don't believe you need to be ashamed of yourself because of it. It's not your fault after all. I'm not sure how can you control it though. Babbling is very common though, so I don't think it should be a problem for the people you're talking to. Still, I understand why it may be annoying. Please don't give up! Keep trying your best. That's all you can do after all. Sending many hugs to you, Sisabel