The first time I read this I went yep, this is me (which it is) and I thought T would challenge it because he challenges resistance... but I got to thinking more on it... I think it would be a relief to him for me to push back against him so he knew I was strong enough to challenge him if he is wrong/something doesn’t fit especially since I tend to be very submissive to men...

BUT... IRL... I try too hard to be the good wife, the good friend, the good mother, the good pet owner, the good employee..... so is it really untherapeutic that I carry that perfectionism and lack of inmate self worth into therapy as well? Maybe if I figure out that I can be the good enough client and T won’t fire me (I have been fired by three T’s and a Pdoc... so insecurity is high)... that might carry over into being a good enough employee, a good enough parent, a good enough....

So, maybe trying to be the good client isn’t SO bad?