Thanks, I hope you're right. I hope it's not too late. I'm not going to go out without a fight.

I found a $20 bill on the street while I was walking home today and even though I'm broke, I just felt like I didn't deserve it. I gave it to a homeless guy I passed a little later.

I'm trying the whole gratitude thing, waking up in the morning and being thankful for health and a 2nd chance even though things look really bleak and I'll never likely actually catch up, just kind of keep my head above water at this point.

I think I have to somehow get to a point through hard work and becoming a better person where I actually believe I deserve this life after I've failed so much. I hope I can get there and I appreciate everyone writing that actually cares about my sob story, even though I'm the one who got myself here.