T, yesterday was a really BIG session even though it might not have felt like it to you. I know we didn’t get to what you had planned for us to do and I appreciate your flexibility. Yesterday I opened up to you a whole lot more than I ever have wit a T, just not in a scared/vulnerable way. I was happy and playful and I wasn’t being self conscious about anything. You said the more I was able to relax and just be with you the more I would be able to recieve from the session. Even the hug at the end felt different and I know on some level you noticed it because you held me longer. I know you were worried several times because you blurted things out or got “off topic” but that’s part of what made space for the magic to happen. I doubt you would say you were having a bad day or even an off day. But you just got back from one trip and are getting ready to leave on a second one, you were running crazy late, the cards weren’t on the credenza the way you like them, you were distracted... things were not going your way... and it was AWESOME. Why? Because you were human weather you liked it or not and I felt safer because of it.
I know some of it was also from what I learned about you last week while you were gone, what I discovered about my experience of you through my posts here and the changes in me from defending you to H. I know I walked in seeing you differently... but what an amaizing day for you to be “off” and human.
More than anything I want you to know how important yesterday was and the connection we had for that hour.