wow thats really sad you brought tears to my eyes .You seem to be way to much pain he is sucking the life out of you like a vampire I dont believe in god so i shouldn't give advice but it would seem to me that that a god would not wont you in a relationship where there no love .that a loveless marriage would be one of Satan not of god.

I hope In not out of bounds? I dont believe in God myself.
Ive been with my wife 23 years Though good times and bad there are times I meet of even hated her but I always loved her we both put the other needs above are own, We have a friendship .His a VAMPIRE Thats someone who sucks the life ,happiness sanity, off someone and feeds off of it .the will feed to there nothing left and move on to their next victim. Once again sorry if im out of line But I watch it happen to my mom she was died long befor she past away.