Thank you, all! HUGS!

This friendship DID matter to me in fact. I have few girlfriends that I talk to regularly, and she was one of them. I thought we had a special connection.

I honestly think that the moment she ghosted me was when I got particularly heavy on an issue I was having. Perhaps she just coudn't handle it.

Or maybe she decided she wanted IRL friends, as you mentioned above.

Who knows? All I know is it just hurts, and I am left with no answers and feeling like it was me, even if maybe it wasn't. I will never know the truth, and that's what bothers me the most. I need to get to the bottom of things in life.