The whole situation is just strange. I'm not even mad if it's some troll, I came across as a ranting idiot, so it doesn't surprise me I got trolled if that's what it was. I'm not angry or a vengeful type. I just am trying to figure out what exactly it was. In a rational state of mind it's been 7 years or 6 1/2 and if the government at any time ever assumed I was a threat they would be at my door before I was done typing this.


So on one hand it's not to that extent, while on the other hand the situation is very bizarre. Some people seemed to know personal details about me and it is just strange. I guess wondering about it isn't healthy and I should just let it go, and chalk it up to some random internet trolls, but it still seems more than that to me. Did I due to my mental illness actually get myself involved in something bizarre, or am I making too much out of it.


I'm trying to analyze this while in a rational state of mind like I am now and it still seems odd. I'm trying to be vague on purpose because if there was any truth to it I don't want to be a random D to people and get anyone in trouble. I'm not that petty. I'm just trying to understand what it is I may be involved in. I guess I should just chalk it up to random internet trolls and forget about it, but something just seems different regarding this situation.


It has the feeling of being based somewhat in reality and not simply mental illness. I do worry due to my mental illness I may have inadvertently got myself into something bizarre.My situation seems known to more than just a few people. It is unfortunate that in 2012 this all came on me. Before that date I never even commented on a political site. Though there were other signs, my mental illness didn't manifest itself until then. I'm unsure of this odd situation stems from my nonsense political commentary or something else.


Tho I'm going to take the philosophy from a T.V show I like. It's a post apocalypse show that's a sci fi an anime called Ergo Proxy. They have a ship powered by wind power and one day the wind stops blowing and they are stranded.One character thinks nonstop in circles and it accomplishes nothing and the other character is at peace. The character thinking nonstop is baffled by the other character's carefree attitude.


The answer out of the situation was surprisingly simple either the wind picks up and they get going again or they use up all their food supplies and rip. Thinking about it is pointless, if I really am into a bizarre situation and not just a troll, make the most of whatever time I have. Thinking about whether the wind will blow or not is pointless. It either will or it won't.
But this is a psyche site, and I was just curious what people who know psyche related stuff would say regarding this odd situation. I know many people with my illness say similar things, and I may be one of them, while on the other hand while in a rational state of mind analyzing things, something seems different about this. Regardless either the wind will blow or it won't. Thinking about it is pointless.