Grief sleep is so weird. At 9:00 I was fighting to stay awake because I knew if I fell asleep I'd just be up at midnight. I finally gave up at 10:45 and fell asleep. I woke at 12:30 and now its 1:54 AM and I just finished paying bills trying to distract myself. I always wake during the night but right now it is seriously waking.

Oh well. All I have to do tomorrow is walk and feed my mom's dogs, probably get a vet appointment for my cat (ugh), and call some agency that has something to do with handling my father's death. So that's good. I'll lie to myself that I'll nap but I won't actually allow that .