DRunk. Sitting on my parents back porch. Had a great day. Saw my T and he and I have decided to talk about all the trauma I have been through in the last two years with horror mixed/psychotic episodes, almost back to back. It has messed me up bad. Still, today I am good. I went for a great swim. Had an afternoon nap, and now waiting for an amazing dinner prepared by my parents. Lucky me! No alcohol tomorrow as I'm out and I cannot afford it. Taken up smoking, which I cannot afford, and hoping to quit when my supply runs out.

Haha. Good luck. How else am I supposed to cope with all this trauma? Coping skills? They help but I am drowning here. Mood is stable at least. See my pdoc tomorrow but things are ok so not much to report. Love this drunk feeling. Such peace. Not that I encourage drinking. I am just messed up right now.