it started when i was a kid... when i was upset it went beyond the normal tantrums...i broke stuff; i was physically abusive to my brother. i couldnt calm down. i had irrational fears. i SI for the first time when i was 11 and i still struggle with it to this day. i definitely had the impulsiveness and depression as early as high school. relationship problems started as early as college...the flipping out, punching walls, the not being able to listen, the telling people off and kicking people out of my life i never learned to deal with conflict so anger has always been something i just cant figure out how to deal with