Dear T,
I should not have brought that up with 20 minutes left. But I mean, the whole session was circling around the same topic. Guess it's glaringly obvious how attached to you I am, huh? I know you care, I think you're just not sure what to do with me sometimes. Because I'm apparently such an outlier in your clients. Not just now, but over your nearly 20 years of practice. And there's definitely countertransference going on, even if you wouldn't label it as such--as you apparently want to focus on the relationship and feelings going on right now, not whether it's transference/countertransference. But those last 20 minutes felt particularly intense. I'll likely end up seeing you Friday. Your parting words of "I hope you'll be OK--I really do" meant a lot to me. You obviously care, it just seems you're almost conflicted about how much you do. Like you're fighting it almost. And do you save magazine articles for other clients like you did for me today? I wish the therapeutic relationship wasn't so ****ing complicated. Likely will see you Friday. But I'll see what I feel like in a few hours.
Love,
LT