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Been there sweet and its not a nice place to be I felt I had failed even though I hated him I couldnt get over the fact that it felt wrong in getting a divorce.
In the end I went for councling to get over the end of the marriage ! It felt a weird thing to do but I had no other choice.
If you ever want to talk make a thread cos I reckon lots of people will understand and will be able to give you advice that will help you and others........