I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, bblazerm I understand what you mean. Sex is a very important aspect in every relationship and it's normal that you wouldn't feel good about your girlfriend not wanting to have sex with you. Trying to forcing her to do it is definitely NOT ok though. That's not the solution and you won't get what you really need and want and it's also abusive and unfair to her. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. Perhaps you may explore what are the root causes of this anxiety and behavior you have. You have every right to live a loving, respectful relationship with another woman, as long as you love her and respect her yourself. I'd suggest to work on yourself before engaging with another woman. Learn from your mistakes. Try to understand what you really need and want from your life. Try to improve yourself. That's the most important thing that you can do to improve this. I hope things will get better soon for you. I hope you'll be able to get better and to find a woman that loves you and that you love back. Please don't give up! Try to hang on! Remember that we're here for you if you need it! Feel free to PM me anytime! Let me know if I can do something to help you! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, bblazerm. You don't deserve to suffer at all. Nobody deserves to suffer at all in this world