T, I know you are leaving again so I know for sure it will be totally random if you reply to my emails. I’m sad. I am so sick again I even called into work. I’m scared. I need work to see you but I can’t juggle all this. I had SO much more fall into place from last session I think I need two sessions to process last session and then one to do what ever we will do next week. We need to talk about addictions next week. NO I didn’t lie when I said I don’t use drugs or alcohol... but we still need to go there. I know that will totally railroad your plans... and we were going to do relaxation and I need that, I think I need that to not be sick. T, I want a hug. Not just any hug, the hug from Monday when I felt you breathe and I felt the texture of your sweater and I was present so you didn’t let go so quick, you let me feel. Oh, T, there is SO much to do.