Thanks all. I had blood tests today and all well. My lithium dose is low so my levels were almost negligible. But thyroid is fine. Going to have it rechecked in a month.

I am anxious because I will be outside a lot this summer. I did feel when I was outside and wasn’t drinking enough water my muscles cramped really quickly.

I see my psych again in April and will see his thoughts. The lithium has definitely muted me but it has also lessened any sort of motivation or drive. I feel dull.

I stopped taking medication altogether and really prefer to be off it but at least during this stressful moment when I’m moving and dealing with work drama, I need to not be impulsive. I went down this road of medication after I started self harming again.

Anyhow I just wanted to post an update for anyone else that might be in these shoes.