I was a little down and out today... at times depressive thoughts..But yet I was ok and hopeful and happy too... can't fully explain.
I see the therapist on Thursday which .. I am just wondering if this will be worth it all... and again?? Maybe I am just one of the ones that is a self medicater ... I dont want to lose myself, my way, what I feel deeply... I just need more time I think at moments.

I dislike having to re explain ... I dislike so much ... but I am needing something as I am causing trouble I feel like. Plus just me,.. the realization i crashed hurts i think... "why can't i get a grip and hang on to it??"

Ya know how Facebook shows memories 2017 and 2014 I was obviously agitated.. 2017 mentioned something like that day would be the day I'd piss everyone off... funny yesterday I had that feeling as well and was laughing about it... 2014 I posted something about giving a meme to a **** head ...
So much anger...