She's going to go skiing with my sister in the morning. I'm going to study tonight and then go to class in the morning.

I feel like this is my fault but really some things are her fault for allowing my sociopathic narcissistic abusive step dad to be in my life. I allowed everything to happen. I did so many drugs to try and make myself stupid and unaware of my own life, throwing it away, getting hospitalized like 15 times. My mom had to deal with that too and I'm sorry for that but she needs to stop drinking and she's going to drink again.

She says she doesn't want to drink and she'll stop but she drinks a bottle of wine every night or more.

She WONT admit that she has a problem so I can't get her professional help. When she's sober, she has it all together like no one else. She's a completely different person when she's drunk just like my alcoholic real dad that I love very much but he's going to die soon and doesn't care if he dies soon.