I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, mf1438 It must be very hard for you. I'm so sorry that your wife refuses to listen to you in regards to sex. Sex is a very important part in every relationship. I'm so sorry she's refusing to go to couple counseling as well. Please do consider trying out masturbation. I know it's not the same thing, but it may help a bit. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. Please don't give up. Try to continue therapy if you can. I hope things will get better soon for you and you'll at least be able to get over your guilt. It won't be easy and it will take time, but it can be done. I'm so sorry you're in such a tough situation. I wish I've had more advice to give to you. I'll be here to listen though. We're all here to listen to what you have to say. We all care about you here! We all love you here! You know we won't judge you! I promise you that! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, mf1438! Please don't give up! Try to hang on as much as you can! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! Keep fighting! I'm so sorry you're going through all of this! You don't deserve it at all! You don't deserve to suffer at all! Nobody deserves to suffer at all! Please keep us updated! Keep fighting! Remember that you're awesome!