I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, sirprize111 It always hurts us so much when the people we love get away from us. I'm so sorry. You'll get over this, I'm sure of that, but it will take time. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I feel like that may really help you. You'll never forget her, but hopefully at least the pain will ease a little bit. I completely agree with what Skeezyks has already wisely said better than I ever could. I'd suggest to listen to him if you can! He always gives us great advice! Just take some time for yourself. Try to focus on yourself and take your time to heal your scars and wounds. Just take all the time you need. Just take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. No need to hurry. I hope things will get better soon for you. Try to find as many distractions for yourself as you can. Work on yourself as much as you can. You'll feel better about yourself and perhaps you'll meet someone else that will truly love you for who you truly are. Please don't be so hard on yourself. It's not your fault any of this happened. Things like this can just happen and it's no one's fault. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, sirprize111. Please don't give up. Try to hang on as much as you can. You can do this! You've got this! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! Keep fighting! I'm so sorry you're going through all of this! You don't deserve to suffer at all! Nobody deserves to suffer at all, especially you! Remember that you're awesome! I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this! Just try to do your best! That's all you can after all and it's more than enough! Trust me when I say that! I know things are pretty hard right now, but trust me when I say that things CAN and WILL get better! You can do this! You've got this! Please don't give up hope! Remember that you're awesome and strong! Keep fighting! We all believe in you!