it's totally valid feelings. don't let anyone tell you differently. Sometimes people who went through sexual violence don't feel validated because it "wasn't that bad". i'm here to tell you it is that bad. no one should cross your boundaries and no one should make you feel like it wasn't "that bad". you're obviously in distress. It's going to take time. It's hard i know. I even told my therapist i didn't want to work on my PTSD because it's hard to open up out loud about it... even my best friend doesn't know the extent my abuse was and neither did my ex when i was with him. it's difficult... i have nightmares and flashbacks from it... I'm only telling you about my abuse just to tell you i can relate. it's something we both need to work on... i'll open up and we can ride this journey together... with me, you, and our friends at Psych Central. you're not alone.