Had therapy today. She surprised me by starting off asking me where I was with the Lyme disease and how I was doing with it. It's been years since I have been treated and still have some residual symptoms, although better than before. She explained intrusive thoughts can be related to Lyme disease and maybe that was the case for me.

We also discussed that she does not see any signs of bipolar disorder despite the diagnosis (or any of the other things I am worrying about like personality disorders). I know that I have moods that cycle, but I have to agree I do not think I quite reach hypomania except with the wrong meds. She wanted me to consider seeing their nurse about medication for intrusive thoughts, but I said I would at least want them to have my records from my psychiatrist since he saw me for about a year and I apparently react atypically. She mentioned zoloft, but I really think SSRIs are a terrible idea for me and don't think I'll be experimenting with that anytime soon.

So yeah, seems like I possibly do not have bipolar disorder. I wonder if there is any reason to go back to my psychiatrist to discuss. Maybe at least to consider options for OCD which is sounds like I probably do have. It is a bit strange to think if I do not have bipolar, than I will just have an incorrect diagnosis in my medical charts unless I get them to change it.